flabbergasted

i think i have been turning my emotions towards food.

all i can do is keep eating and eating and stuffing myself.
the fridge goes empty and i turn toward the emo lonely otah that lies frozen in the freezer.
i keep eating and eating. keep eating and eating eat eat eat feel so stuffed but i keep eating eating eating gorging gorging gorging. i think i am getting way ahead of myself sometimes but my body isnt rejecting the food and when it doest reject i just eat and get full. full full full. full of nothing.

feel bad fat horrible fat stuffed fat everything feels wrong but i can say nothing just wish everything will stop.

wonder if it is just me myself and i. the food is inside me churning and my brain is screaming more more i want more more more but i cant keep going. it is 8 40 at night i keep eating eating since i woke up at 11 eat eat eat. i look at my homework eat eat eat.

surfeiting.

burn up. please.

have come something so wrong feels so right with you?