recollections

hmm. well. dont know why but recent period is emo period. :/
can see as i have been uploading loads...

the blogger bug is back man. i wonder how long it will last.
i think i'm sort of crazy now and i'm a lazy pig and i'm neglecting AND procrastinating my homework.
now i cant blame anyone when they say i'm lazy.

dots leh.
I NEED TO BUCK UP!!!!!!

right....

just a few memories ran past my head some time ago.
on the way back from malaysia.

i remember the old house at malaysia before it got burned.
like how me and yt and xm and jia would cycle around the frangipani trees. the old see saw and the time when i had fever and puked at the school's corridor.
(my grandma's old house was just directly literally beside the school)
when my uncle drived passed the school now, the place where my grandma's house used to be is just a basketball court already.

sometimes i wish i wont need to grow up. ):
i miss the old times. alot.

ok something really random.
you know in primary school.. exams always had long periods and we werent allowed to fall asleep right. so there was usually about half to one hour of spare time. i dont check my work one last time. so i started playing with my pens and pencils and pretended they were alive and they had their own "stories". i played them like how we used to play barbie and ken. lol.
my pen and shaker pencil were supposed to be in love during p6.
and my sis's ruler was supposedly the king of the pencil box.
ROFL.
but now exam where got time.... -.-
i write until my hand cramp you know.

hmm.
remember a few years back, like 2 or 3 years ago when yt was still with grace.
i went to a concert with them, with xm. and then on the way home, grace was obviously really tired. so yt placed his hand on grace's head and shifted it (*gently la!!) to his shoulder. it think that's really sweet. (: i think i used to keep on waiting if he'd do that for me.
which apparently is not gng to happen. like wtf. -.- why suddenly talk about him.
jess will kill me.

because of this stupid person i think i really grew up alot.
JESS WILL LOVE ME!
maybe because of him that's why i dont like leaving things with a comma. or having relationships being ubiquitous or ambiguous. i dont like things blurred or unstated. i mean like is like what, why leave it to be so gray??? things can be black and white if someone makes it clear what.
i dont like there to be a comma as though something is gna be filled in. what if nothing is able to complete the sentence? then so much self denial is going to happen.
need to guess if he likes or don like me.
yt's ended with a comma 2 yrs ago. and well, ... , it just had a really sad fullstop to it last year.

lucky i'm ok now.
lucky jess was there.
lucky i know grace now.
lucky i love who i am now.
lucky i got someone else.
lucky i'm me.