grey

is feeling down.


have you ever wondered, whether someone would finally appear and then its by that particular moment that you missed it?

i wondered if i missed mine.


so tired, but i cant take a break.
i wonder what i am doing to myself.

have been happy the couple of days, its just a particularly down day for me today.
why?

i have no idea too...

its so late now.
im surfeiting from the false satisfaction the food provides.

i ask myself time and time again why i do it.
its just for the certain euphoria at the immediate time.
after that, its not worth it anymore,
once its too much, guilt floods in.

im just so tired..

so much about not being upset anymore.