i could feel the blank in my heart.

ALEX (: philosophers dont listen to philosophies. says:
how do u see me as?
ALEX (: philosophers dont listen to philosophies. says:
what am i in your eyes?
xinyi(: says:
a good cousin and a good fren of my who hepls me alot when i m sad and who use to cheer me up when i m depressed and we use to share all those difficulties those days
xinyi(: says:
and you are realy sumone who realy mean to me
xinyi(: says:
the world is not tat cold and meaningless
xinyi(: says:
i still have my love in you
xinyi(: says:
and i started to cry since minutes ago when i see wad u type and wad u have change to
xinyi(: says:
its not tat u change to a bad person i dun mean tat
xinyi(: says:
may be u are right everyone has his own way
xinyi(: says:
and we have to choose which way and who we want to go wif in which way
xinyi(: says:
i understand



i started crying when i said what i said too.
i don know if i can still say what i used to say.
say if i love you.
i cant do it anymore.
it'd feel so hypocritical.

but somehow just having someone understand just feel as though a block is taken away from my heart.
everyone changes?
maybe.
cant wait for common test to be over and my birthday to come.

i remembered.
i'd like to keep remembering.