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MAX FAIL

great.
nothing is going right.
not that i am having a tough time, its just that so many things just come in and i cant really fixate my attention at all. my main focus was to do well and keep healthy and improve myself. really.
but it's like i cant do it!
i just... how do i put it.. i make myself fall into this flunk of a mess and all i want to do is just lie ...

wait.
i hate slacking around.. but that power of the mother fucking television is like all almighty and i really want to get away from it all. but i cant. i mean i can but my willpower is really weak.

point.
focus.
LONG RANT AHEAD

have to get away from poisonous people.
do you know? that there are just people out there who can make you feel like shit.
(duh)
but i mean there's really these kind of people.
not the mean bitchy ones. but sometimes those that make you feel like you're worthless.
i would always wonder if it's true. what they say.
"if that person don't like you then it's not just you, maybe simply that guy is just not for you, you're not his type. that's it, its not your fault!"

seventeen magazine: if he's not into you, it's not you, it's him!

but reader's digest! : there is no such thing as platonic friendship between men and women

i take it in the sense that there's always mutual attraction to be very close buddies.
in this case, what RD mentioned was that if a man and woman were to remain very good platonic friends, it's because there is a point or factor (?) that disgusts the other party. eg. her thighs very fat eg. his nose very big etc etc

there is always this factor that stops people from getting together. in a way i think it's this factor of put-offness that makes male and female remain friends rather than getting together.
if nothing is stopping you, then NOTHING can stop you.

i dont know which to believe.
magazines are poisonous too.
(some)
i trust RD. sometimes. more than seventeen anyway.

seventeen is poisonous.
(away away!!)
in this sense because its for brainwashing young girls into bimbos and making them want this and that when all they are really doing is earning money from the commercials and adverts and then putting the well being of teens behind, asking them to save money (eg.) or splurge or losing weight for summer or just love your body, or being independent yet dressing up or flirting. so fucking incoherent.

whats up with that?
of cos, its not just seventeen. theres like others.

i mean, you can read it, but i wont really take it seriously.
to me, magazines are like vices, just like how tv is mine.
so fucking irritating.
get sucked sucked sucked and then nothing useful comes up
unless it's like useful tv or stuff.

which is not most of the case interesting and i find myself wasting time trying to finish it when it is all without a point.

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