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i just need somebody you know.
like how william loves charlene..

i wonder if im being slightly delusional.

but i always needed that sense of security.
and up till now no one has ever given me that.

then when this happens i feel so lost, so helpless because i dont know what i can do with my life. and simply because i dont know what i can do i keep crying and i just know that i can never match up to her.

i am almost nothing.

i was the one who made this happen.
and i am so worried that no one will forgive me for it.

nobody understand.
because they all have someone

and when they all have someone they forgot how it was like to be single all alone insecure and uncared.

i am grateful for everything right now.
i just wish i could be at peace with myself and grow satisfaction
you need to know gratitude and know how to be satisfied.

always have alot of OSTs in my ipod.
it ties emotions to my music.
and i like that sense of familiarity and i like that i can relate to that emotion.

i want my own OST to my life too.
rather than waiting for someone to make it for me,
i want to go make my own.

i just wish i was much braver and stronger to do so.
grow eve, grow.