a reflection

this post.
i am so frustrated and yet at awe at myself. it's a laughing matter and altogether something that i could beat myself up about.

i lied to my mom.
and decided to go out to supper with my friend. SHAWN lam.
then. amidst the rush..

i lost 50bucks,
wasted like 20 bucks mad cabbing,
had awful tze char
and no dim sum.

makes me wna stab someone...

but then after, i realised i spent it with the most spontaneous person possible and he made this deal alot easier.
and it was like, despite the lateness of it, MIULERD opened her house and welcomed us where we htht and i fell asleep while the two of them continued htht-ing.

life brings you burns
and life brings you joy.

it kinda really depends on how you choose to see things. i hope the person who took my 50 dollars really needed it for smthg impt and not spend it on something stupid like a topshop dress.

i used to be alot more reckless.
i would have probably done something stupid to make myself feel better about the loss. but i guess no one is perfect. and the good thing is that i realised i have changed. i am upset about it, but .. it is just money. and i realised i have really good friends. and my friend gladine bought me a really awkward but healthy juice drink ABC today. its Apple Beetroot Carrot.

sometimes when you lose something, it kinda clears your view and you see things better.

i shall take this as clearance of the hindrance that is blocking my eyes.

awkward ma!

okthxbye.