rachel

(all these past memories. stuck and lost as we move on to the future. remember them?)


you have been so strong.

i am proud to be your friend.
continue doing what you are doing. being strong.
dont think that you are not, because you are one of the strongest person i have seen.
it is tough for you but you are still going strong.

dont expect anyone to want you to just suck it in,
we are here for you to spill it out.

we (ie. wong,ica,me) are the people who least want you to suck it all in.

ignore those stupid relatives.
and also ignore the calling from ssa is you want.
i just hope you dont retract back into your shell and keep everything from us.
tell us something and let us know whats going on.

i know i dont handle situations well,
so i am glad ica is there for you.
and please please if anything goes wrong just let anyone of us know alright.

dont be mad at me for wanting you to open up.
i am just afraid that the eventual pressure would make you distant from us.

dont be afraid okay.
i love you very much.
you know we all do.

i cant say much.
but this is just what i want to say to show my support.
and thinking about your dad..
is it lame to say this? but he warms the cockles of my heart.

i really want the two of you to be okay.

i love you!
xoxo