Thursday, November 25, 2010

bleak future

hello to the minimal people who read my blog.

uncle chris once told me, when i told him that i wanted to major in philosophy, that i shouldnt be majoring in something that i could probably do in my free time. and another example i saw was the girl that ted mosby (HIMYM) once fell for actually read philosophy in her free time.

there is always something uncertain i want to do.
its not like i want to do accounting or like, medical biology and stuff.

i want to do music, i want to cook, i want to draw, paint, take pretty photographs, i want to even act.
since i was the age of 12 i realised i love acting! but.. eventually the passion died and somehow it just recently got rekindled because i was "sort of" praised that i did a good job in my practical examination for theatre studies. it is something that i am good at. and something that even if i am ultimately not passionate enough about, it is something that i enjoy doing very much.

but then what can i be in the future should i choose to take this path?

staying in singapore is such a wonderful thing i know, but it can get so suffocating too i know..

i wonder what i am going to do with my life if i do fail this semester...

please dont let me fail.
i know my mistake now, i wont do it again...
i just want to make it through and i will really work fucking hard.
please god let me through.

if not... what is going to happen to me?

1 comment:

Unknown said...

hey ya! having rachel as a reader equals to a 100 anyways! :D teehee~ well...in real life, a degree in something doesnt mean u have to work in that line when u grow up...it's juz to look good in yr resume. so juz study whatever that makes u happy :)
nv noe what will happen tmr so make everyday count!(i noe cliche, but no other quotes i can think of at the moment >.< cough syrup..ahem*) luv u!