questions for you

i cannot differentiate the feelings if i love you or if i like you

i dont know if i want you or i need you.
whats the difference between being used to you and you being my habit?

i dont think you will see this,
maybe i was too selfish.
maybe i was too blinded by my ownself that i neglected you.

i have always taken you for granted.
or so i think.
i dont know.

right now at this moment.
i am lost.
standing in the middle of nowhere i cannot tell you how much i miss you how much i need you or how much i just want you to be holding my hand.

but we dont need each other.
maybe lives will be better.
from the start, it should have stated we werent meant to be.

maybe time just made things easier.
maybe time just blurred the line between friends and lovers.
maybe its the time to let go before i hurt any deeper.
im hurting enough.

if i let go now.
no matter how much i hurt.
i will heal faster.

i cannot deny that i need you.
but i will not admit that i cannot survive without you.

i will be stronger.
i want to stay better.

and if time dont heal my wound, i will bandage it up myself.