on another note;

i like lying in bed. alone in my room.
it's my defense because no one gets in without my consent and there's no evil media because i choose not to watch it.

my defense.
and i can cry as much as i want to.
wallow in my pillows and blanket.

i cry,
and sometimes when i see the sunlight leaking through my curtains,
i imagine it the world outside burning.

then nothing can hurt me.