reminded

i dreamt of kevin liao last night.

inside, oddly enough, he had to come to a certain country from either vancouver or taiwan.
but he came to america to find me, not singapore.
i dont know why, dreams doesnt really makes sense.
and we were in a competition.

and he found me, and talked to me.
then he fell in love with me, and i didnt.

the complication that arose was that he found out that i was the girl, with paula abdul (WHY???) who left him the email msges, comments...
he thought i was the weird stalker.

that was supposedly the reason why i couldnt accept him cos he didnt reply me.
lol. apparently i missed him too much. but in the end, the climax passed and we talked things out, i couldnt remember what, and it was a happy ending. we were together.

in the dream i remember his voice, just like how i had heard it on tv.
but he was talking to me, "something wrong?" "or what was going on?"
and i remember him looking at me.

i cant remember if he held my hand, i could only remember him hugging me.

hmmm.

food for thought of the day, weird dream of kevin liao.
but after this dream, i miss him so much.

i realised i probably did too much.
i always tend to overdo things to the people i love. and care for.

i remember joey once said "i dont think that he (kevin) would ever realise that someone halfway across the globe actually keeps his photo in her wallet and uses as a bookmark."
i laughed it off, saying "he'll never know la." but deep down i was really depressed.

here's cheers to the second guy i ever really liked and love since lyt! i wont ever forget how much i loved him that time.