me = stupid

honestly.

i cant sleep.
im hugging the huge red tomato.
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

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feel like crying but im not. which is good and bad. proves im strong, but i cant vent my frustrations. i have this "gwahh gwahh gwahh" tone going on and on in my badass head. i told most of my close friends i miss him.

but here's the question.
do i like him?

I DONT KNOW!!!!

i mean, what can i say about it?
we never really did know each other.
maybe i just miss the feeling that he was the nicest guy to me.

and i dont like telling other people about me feeling this way because i know its my fault and i dont want people to keep telling me to forget about it (even though i want to but i don know why my neh neh brain doesnt want to) and the fact is that i will never forgive myself for making such a stupid mistake.

maybe i'll tell him one day about it 10 years later if he is not married or single.
when i get over the fact. or not.

-to self-
stupid! stupid! stupid!