i feel stupid

today was boring. but i went for all lessons mind you.

my chinese teacher said i can be a DJ cos i got a very unique voice. :D

i met ruth today, for a while, but its great finally meeting her after so long. (:

i miss going out with her. should grab her and bring her to giraffe sometime.
the dom petro is calling our names.

i talked to jess for a while today.
and i started thinking. maybe things should be rested for a while.
got to cool my brain and heart (if it does involves it).

how come my vball sucks so badly.
go to start practicing on my own.

i hid under the bed and listened to the sweet nothings of them.
i covered myself with the blanket and started crying.

i forgot how much pain my heart can feel.
i forgot how much courage it took to say something.
i forgot how much loneliness you can feel when you are not alone.
i forgot alot of things.

for something to linger over two years, the amount of damage it does to myself is surprisingly huge.
i didnt expect myself to fall so badly. nor so deep.

its time to wake up girl, the sweet dream's over.